“The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”
I’m a creative. One of my favorite and most consistent ways I connect to Holy Spirit is through art and the creative process. It stills my mind and puts me in an open and meditative place where I can easily hear God. As it happens, I found myself in a difficult season where it was hard for me to hear and I sat down to try to get in that space where my mind would still and I could receive. I positioned myself in front of my drawing desk broke out the pastels and began to paint. However, instead of finding that still place, everything felt like a struggle. Forced and frustrated, I was only getting more irritated. I finally got up and threw my pastel stick at the table and yelled “What is wrong with me!” In response, I got one of the clearest direct answers I have ever received from Spirit (which is another story entirely) but I didn’t really like the answer so I stormed out of the house to go ride my motorcycle.
I probably deserved a good smack down but on the way out of the door the calm gentle voice of Holy Spirit trailed up behind me like a wise mother who is bringing you the coat you forgot on a chilly day. “What is the last thing I told you son?”
I grumbled … something about the wind…
“That’s right. The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit. You take after me. You are going to have to learn to be comfortable moving like the wind. No matter what others think. I wanted you to go ride your motorcycle anyway. You need to go outside and play you have been in the house too much lately.”
Hmfff… I went and rode.
In that moment, I wasn’t moving with the Spirit but she was patiently moving me. I had my own agenda and I was trying to force Holy Spirit to do what I was doing. It just so happened that while I was out riding that day I started hearing Holy Spirit clearly. Mostly telling me what was in my heart that was keeping me from hearing and what I needed to adjust.
I am an avid Kiteboarder. Kiteboarding takes a measure of faith in the wind. I need to be able to read the wind because what the wind is doing dictates what I am doing. If I am kiting on land or water, which size kite, what kind of board I need … surfboard, twin tip etc. I can do great things when I am powered up by the wind. Without it I am just a dude in a funny rubber suit standing on the beach with a lot of expensive but useless gear. Knowing what Holy Spirit is doing is just like this. If Spirit is saying We are doing this and I am doing something else in the name of God I am just practicing a form of godliness with no power. Likewise, with kiteboarding, if I don’t do what the wind is doing I am going to have a very frustrating time at best. The wind doesn’t do what I want. I bend to it. It requires me to adjust and move when the conditions are right. Sometimes I can plan ahead and sometimes I need to respond now if I want to go. I’m always watching the weather report. As the years have passed I now just have a feel for what is coming. I recognize patterns and seasons. Sometimes I just know by how the day feels. No wonder Holy Spirit is likened to the wind. This is so much like getting familiar with the movement of Holy Spirit. If you don’t stay in tune you will miss the movement.
That being said I want to encourage those that feel like they are too random or never know what they are doing from one day to the next. Those of you that are compelled to do a particular thing or be in a certain place for reasons not entirely clear. You may feel compelled to wear purple for weeks or like you really need to stand in the water for no reason other than it feels right. Maybe you suddenly can’t stop singing a certain pop song that you don’t even like but for some reason you know all the words. You may even get criticism from friends or family for being weird or flighty and random. Once I discovered I had a prophetic call on my life my prayer for over a year was “Holy Spirit possess me.” Weird eh? If you knew my background you would understand the prayer. For a time it seemed that the more I let Holy Spirit take control over my life the more random I seemed to get. But also, the more passionate and compelled I felt about when I needed to do certain things. I often wouldn’t find out until later that I was doing just what I was supposed to be doing to release something in the spirit. Remember, God doesn’t do anything until he tells his prophets. I was flowing with the Spirit. It’s part of the lifestyle of those born of the Spirit. You are not broken or weird or noncommittal. You most likely have a prophetic call on your life and are compelled by the one your heart was designed to move with. You are free to move like the wind. The less you fight it the freer to be yourself you become and the more your life will make sense. I promise you when you do what God is doing he automatically takes care of you. Ask Holy Spirit to teach you to hear God’s voice and allow yourself to move with the Spirit. Like the wind.